Friday, February 5, 2010

Keeping My Chin Up

Here's some advice:

Don't ever trust Facebook to keep a secret....a secret.

I recently made the mistake of trusting the "you and me" filter button on the comment box--OOPS. MAJOR OOPS!

But needless to say, I had someone turn my words around and use them falsely and irrelevantly against me. Lets all laugh, right? No--she didn't know the emotion, the terrifying experience I had behind those words and the only one who knows the truth to the whole thing is my boyfriend AKA HER brother.

Oh yes-I have fallen into a family dispute with my boyfriend's family. Now I'm screwed.

I apologized, and apologized--oh yeah--AND APOLOGIZED. I guess some people aren't willing to forgive, even for something so small and minute. I'm a very forgiving person. I may not always forget, rarely do I, but I will forgive. It is after all, apart of my own religious beliefs, as I thought it was apart of hers too since we read from the same Bible-to be merciful and to forgive.

I asked what I could do--but I got no response, just insults.

This is when I had enough. I had let her scream in my face while sitting on my hands for the sake of holding together any kind of relationship with his family-BUT-I'm not one to be made a fool of and you will "get yours."

I used to be a passive person, but my passiveness has turned into patience, but the patience will break, especially when you turn something against me that you have no understanding about.

GROW UP.
GET OVER YOURSELF.
AND MOVE ON HUN.

We both have better things to do than make each other angry, especially when it's not going to solve anything and I've given up on the fact of forgiveness and actually-I don't really care anymore to receive it.

The situation made me grateful for my parents and myself. I realize how great of a person I can be and that I was raised in a good way. (not that she wasn't)--we are very different people, but we should both be empathetic. I wasn't to begin with, but I didn't realize how different we were in the way we "took things." But I apologized and tried to reason. I even broke it down for her.

Oh well--I still have my boyfriend and that's all that matters.

God knows the truth behind my actions and that's all that matters to me.
God Bless and Goodbye.